Thinking about starting the GAPS diet

My life has led me down this path that's ever winding

Through every twist and turn, I'm always finding

That I am lost again

Tell me when this road will ever end

Give me a revelation

Show me what to do

'Cause I've been trying to find my way

I haven't got a clue

Tell me should I stay here

Or do I need to move

Give me a revelation

I've got nothing without you  (Third Day - Revelation)

I am sure I am not alone, wanting a revelation about what to do in a situation that seems to be going nowhere.  For 11 years this was a daily plea. It seems we had tried everything for Olivia. With each intervention, it seemed as though Olivia was always the kid that it didn't work for.  In the beginning, the anti-seizure drugs to control the small jerks..... The high doses of steroids that were a miracle for some children with myoclonic seizures......The Ketogenic diet.........MCT Oil Diet.......Gluten & Casein Free Diet.........Homeopathy........Pfeiffer Treatment Center Supplements.......Allergy Associates Sub-Lingual Drops.........Antibiotics for Lyme Disease.......Miraculous Instant Healing through Prayer.............

Always searching, not accepting, anxiously starting the new intervention with a fear that this one will fail too.  Living through failed treatment after failed treatment.  So many times I tried  to "make" the treatment work.  I followed the instructions flawlessly, no matter which intervention it was. Sometimes I wonder if this is just hard wired in to a mother's brain, perhaps her soul. Giving up, stopping the search has never came to mind.  As long as there is hope why give up? To some that may be easier, but is it really?

This marks the beginning of the GAPS diet.  Once again, the "Thrill of Hope" leaves me restless.  After reading the book, the website and any other information I could read, the hope has returned.